18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
It screams “I want more! Feed me!”
This animal is always hungry
How can I rid myself of the beast within me?
Holy Spirit, I only want you, yet I continue to deal with this darkness
It laughs at me every time I fail. It haunts my nights when I’m alone, when I’m with others, when I worship, when I sing praises to You
It reminds me of my past, of my yesterdays
Father, remove this thorn and sooth my pain, deliver me from this oppression.
I need Your grace to nail it on the cross every day
I need to die so You can live
My ego, my will, its agenda, its cravings, I give to you
Have Your way Lord, my King, I submit to Your purpose
Sin can become a very big problem if not dealt with. God gives us grace (His supernatural power) to deal with addictions, lusts, bad attitudes, etc. We cannot deal with them alone. This poem is talking about those desires inside all of us that crave for more and more. The beast is symbolic to demons (yes, they are real), who tempt us and may even put us into bondage where we need deliverance from them. You might be at church, at school, at work, taking a walk, wherever, and that voice may come. You get that feeling to do what you know is wrong, and it only gets stronger. What do you do? One: figure out how to deal with it, whether it’s with pills, patches, anger, running away, or just by holding out really hard until it goes away. Does that ever work? No, because if it did, you wouldn’t have that problem anymore. Two: Give in. Of course, giving in brings all kinds of problems so I wouldn’t suggest that one. Three: Be honest with God and say, “Jesus, HELP! I’m struggling with (insert name of sin here), give me Your grace to get through this!” Also, get rid of the things, situations, people, or anything else that is tempting you or leading you to that particular sin. God isn’t stupid. Don’t ask Him to give you grace to not smoke marijuana (for example), when you still hang out with the same people who smoke it every day.
The beast within us all needs to be put to rest, and it’s done through a process. Can we live freely without sin? YES! Will we be perfect? NO! Some of us deal with certain sins more than others, and vice versa, so you need to examine your life and see which ones you struggle with. I could write a list of what I believe would be some of those sins, but I know you can think of them yourself or pray and ask the Holy Spirit to reveal them.
God doesn’t discriminate, and He’s not looking for perfect children who can follow every rule, because He knows that doesn’t work. We have already broken them because we are all sinners. Trust in the power of the Holy Spirit, who is God, to give you the strength to stand against the temptation. Use the escape that God gives you when the temptation comes, and read His word so you can learn more about the different areas in your life that still need work. There are areas that can be more fruitful in your life, but you don’t know about them. Read the only instruction manual for life, the bible, to improve your life and become blessed so you can be a blessing to others, in any way God leads you.
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